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Cer teka ! Cer teka ! Pe mende alah ni?? Apa? Tak jelas? Upload lagi gambar.

Sudah jelaskah sekarang? *calculating cash in hand - cried*  T__T
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What is this?

What is this?
Originally uploaded by aboi48

It suddenly appeared beside my office table..looks like cockroach but it not it, I think. What it is?

Suicide

Today I'm going to talk about suicide.  There has been lots of suicide cases these days.  Not only in our country but in other country also.  I heard this morning that there's a girl in Kota Bharu tried to commit suicide at the mall yesterday but got safe.

But I don't want to talk about her.  I want to talk about me myself.  Its been about 2 or 3 weeks that I've suffered from stress.  Stress is really not a joke.  I don't know why should I feel stress.  There is no concrete reason to be stress out though.

Yesterday, I burst out on my way home.  Feeling hopeless, useless and lonely.  I cried a lot these days.  It feels like everything that I do ain't right.  Forced to do something that I don't want to, something that I don't have skill into.  Makes me feel down.

I want to go to a psychiatrist but I can't because I don't know what my problem is exactly.  Nowadays, its hard to do work even it was a simplest thing to do.  I don't feel energize to do neither work nor assignment. 

Last night, I commited suicide in my dream.  I ran away from something or someone (I'm not sure, but its more like few people), and lastly decided to end my life by jumping out from the top of a block.

When I fell on the ground (it does feel hurt even it was a dream-my head, my chest), I was still concious.  I felt regreted for doing so and at the end I just resignedly for being dead.  Then I woke up.  Astagfirullahalazim !

Ya Allah, don't make me think about it at all.  I'm afraid. T__T
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Nice weather

Nice wheater
Originally uploaded by aboi48
Today is the day. Super Junior Show 3 live in Malaysia. Eventhough, I'm unable to attend their concert, I wish them good luck and have fun while in Malaysia. Super Junior fighting !

Awkward

Awkward
Originally uploaded by aboi48

I'm not in the mood today. Going to the office without make up on. And something feels awkward with the white scarf. Feels like an elementary school girl. T_T

A Face.

A Face.
Originally uploaded by aboi48

I'm still in the HRP class. But, this is too funny that I can't wait to share it with you.. It was actually an organization that are divide into few department. We're learning about over and lack of staff in the department and the transfer things. The thing is, the organization that the lecturer drew looks like a face..smiling face..isn't it? ^_^

Haruslah Aku Tension !

Short update.

Dah berapa lama dah aku tak bukak blog + update blog + blogwalking.  Haruslah banyak pulak kan orang update blog selama seminggu aku tak bukak blog.  Banyak yang menarik nak dibaca, nak lihat dan nak ditonton.

Tapi aku tak kisah lagi, sebab aku memang suka membaca blog orang lain daripada tulis blog sendiri.  So hari ni la masanya konon-konon nak baca blog-blog mereka-mereka yang dah update blog ni. 

Satu kebiasaan aku, aku akan bukak dalam 15 blog sekaligus, then baca sekaligus, then buat kerja-kerja tertangguh balik and then bukak balik dalam 15 blog sekaligus, then baca sekaligus, then buat kerja balik.  Yang buat aku hangin ni, bukan pasal intipati blog-blog mereka-mereka ni. 

Tapi disebabkan oleh LAGU-LAGU yang diorang pasang kat blog.  Dah tu automatic play pulak tu.  Yang sorang lagu rock, yang sorang lagu slow, yang sorang pop rock, yang sorang sentimental. 

Cuba korang bayangkan.  Cubalah bayang.  Tension !! Tau !! Kalau dalam 15 blog yang aku bukak tu adalah dalam 7 blog yang ada lagu.  Cubalah korang bayang lagi sekali.  Kalau 7 blog tu lagu keluar terus bercampur aduk.  Aduss...pening kepala aku.  Aku kena mutekan pc aku tuk bace blog-blog tu semua.  Kesian la dekat aku.. huhu T__T

Aku tak kisah korang nak pasang lagu.  Tapi jangan lah buat automatic play.  Kalau nak buat automatic play pun aku tak kisah.  Tapi jangan lah sembunyikan tempat nak pause kan or stop kan lagu tu. 

Ada sesetengah blog, aku cari tempat nak stop kan lagu tak ada, bila klik terus ke web tempat diorang ambil widget tu.  At the end, aku tak bace pun blog orang-orang yang berikut tu.  Sedih sedih. T__T

Aku minta maaf lah kepada siapa-siapa yang terasa or aku terkasar bahasa ke apa ea.  So sorry. 

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