Assalamualaikum and Good Day!
It’s been a while..
I don’t really know where to start.
There are times that I was called to write in here but… I don’t know why I didn’t.
There are nothing much that I want to write in here, because.. sometimes, I myself feels that it is not necessary. You know, like when you are about to write something.. You draft and draft and draft and at some points, you just hold the backspace key and delete it all over. And then, you just stared blankly at your computer.
As for me… when I wrote something, I always have that weird thought comes in between like ‘why do you have to write it like this?’ or ‘what are you doing right now? Don’t you have things that are much important than writing this down?’. Something like that.
Also, not to include the fear of what the readers would think. How they view my thought. Will they understand? Or not? And also, the facts that you know that your posts are not informational enough that you think you give nothing to the readers. Why do I have to think about that though? Why do I feel the needs that I shouldn’t write something that was empty? Why?
Why can’t I just write whatever am I thinking or whatever am I experiencing like ‘Who cares! It’s my life anyway!’. Why can’t I? I used to be like that though. I shared whatever things that I like, things that I experienced and bunch of stuff that a girl would share without much thought. But, I can’t do that anymore and I don’t know why.
Am I getting matured? Am I? pfft.. ^_^
I did put thoughts in my writing though. I did think before I posted something but still, I’m still in the process of learning. I’m still in the process of restraining myself from posting ‘trash’ online. Nowadays, I rarely shared what I’ve got, what I ate etc., because I've always been told that I should not show it to the other people because they might just only have the ‘hope’ to get what I have. They can’t afford to have what I have just like I can’t afford things that you have. teehee..
Also, I appreciate people who tell me what I do wrong. Things that need to be fix. But… Do advise me personally. Don’t do it in front of other people. If you do, I would take that you are not advising me but you are insulting me instead. I really don’t appreciate that. Might be because of my personality, but I’m telling the truth, I REALLY don’t appreciate that. I might be hurt because of your advice.. sometimes, badly… but I treasure those who did that for my own sake.
I’m also thankful to those who inspire me to be a better person. I’m on my way. I’ll surround myself with good people. Walk with me or guide me.
Right now, I’m happy with my life and I hope that I will have a brighter future ahead.
I’m welcoming 2015 with a big heart.