I'm NOT Happy !

I am not happy these day.

Actually, yesterday... no.. it's not.. it was the day before yesterday.  I saw one of my old friend at my workplace.  My high school friend.  I'll represent this friend of mine as chingoo..Chingoo means friend in Hangul by the way.

This chingoo.. I don't greet her.  Neither is she.  I was actually not happy at all after I saw her.  Why?  Because...until now, I keep on remembering my old school's days.  It's not fun.  Memories about being bullied, being cheated and the most hurtful, no one was standing by my side when I was being accused for something that I didn't do.  To actually think about it, makes me feel sad.  Very sad.  Can't be describe by words.

I don't know why...but it looks like I still have a grudge towards them.  It's not that I don't forgive them, I just that.. How can I forget something that happened to me that makes me look so low.  I have my own pride.  And.. that so called pride was being stepped and thrown at the deep sea by those so called chingoo.. It's not her but THEM.

It's good to hear about others that have bestfriends since elementary school.  Doing this and that together.. I'm actually jealous and happy for them.. because I don't have those memories.

I believe that someday.. I'll have my forever bestfriends.  T____T

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